Dear Baby

Letters to Everly.

My dove,

I haven’t written you in some weeks. I’ve found myself struggling more with words lately. How can I tell you the things I feel for you without saying what I’ve already said?

I’m not sure it’s possible.

I’ve whispered in your ears a thousand times that God picked you out especially for your father and I. I’ve traced the words I love you in your tiny palms over and over again. The two of us have sat many afternoons just studying each others faces. I’ve looked at you so long, I feel as if I should know the number of lashes on your lids and the name of the exact color of the brown that fills your eyes.

I’ve come to realize that all I can do is continue searching the rest of my days for new ways to tell you the same things- that you’ve changed everything. that you are my most tangible joy. that being your mother is beyond a gift. beyond a blessing. It is the thing that my life was meant for.

but you’ve heard this all before.

and you’ll hear it again.

today and tomorrow and the day after that one too.

Love,

your mama

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